lz to update

walao wei yaaaaaaa......
paiseh for not updating my bloggie =X
dis is gonna b d fastest post i've eva done...took me less than 10mins XD

m i reli tat bz till i've got no time to update????
i dunno d answer as well....
as usual i was being vampire....yes nonstop VAMPIRING
work n work n work everyday reli make me sianzzz...DULAN siii
so fcuking tired n stressed wit my JOBS
yalar...morning work in hotel den nite in d restaurant
it reli sux when i finish work late at nite n going bak to work damn fcukin early in d morning again
URRRRGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
sab sab mau mati dah
n yes d condition get worst now....
i'm sick...seriously sick but i still cant help stop vampiring XD
i've got dis stupid toothache....perhaps its d stupid wisdom tooth...damn it my face is so swollen bcoz of d fcukin tooth....wad????wisdom tooth come out oni got wisdom izzit?????2ndly i got sore throat *cough cough* wahaha my voice bcum so man d....3rdly i kena flu *sniff sniff* sounds lagi man wei....
sometimes i reli feel like fainting when i'm walkin bak home after work....
dis winter is reli too cold n in addition wit my stupiak shiat sickness....its reli killing meeee
d cool breeze....its soooo cold n dry till my eyes n nose damn sore la...pain si si =X

currently addicted to MEETOTO....met some cool n nice n fun ppl in dere XD

sem 1 result's out......
its totally wad i've expected to get =X
one word.......SHIAT
2nd word......FCUK
3rd word.......DAMN
4th word.......SIANZ
5th word......AMEN
a big big big big BIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIGGGGGGGGG thx to my dearest irreplacable for cheering me up =)

ok....nd to clarify tat all d pics are taken totally MANUALLY ok...dun ask me anymore

THEME:::::::::SITOBELEI:::::::::::
its all REAL sitobelei
currently listening to dis song =)

lonely lonely me

everyone's flying off today T.T
sim's flight was pretty on time =)
wahahaha.....amy's n jessie's flight bak home wit tigerairways at 9.35pm got delayed till 1am
wad can i say huh?????
amy memang damn unlucky lo...
everytime her flight sure got macam macam de....EVERY SINGLE TIME
bro's flying off to hk n china for study tour at 12.15am later
i'm gonna b home alone for d whole 2weeks T.T
~~~lonely....i'm miss lonely....i'm nobody~~~~~
my place is consider near to d airport
i can hear n c planes flying pass my place everyday
tinkin.....i wanna go home
when can i finally go bak home again???
aikz.....i got a job interview for HOLIDAY INN tomolo
cham le la....i've got no confidence at all
i've got a feeling tat.....
i noe i'll screw up my interview T.T
i noe i surely cant get d job T.T


hmmm.....browse thru my stuffs today n found my photography stuffs
dis is one of d portfolio.....d theme is city of light

d 1st 4 pics were taken at KING'S PARK
imagine sab was alone dere from nite till d next morning juz to capture some nice pics for d portfolio = =
d worst thing was tat....it was spring n its still damn cold = =


d following 3pics were taken at BELL TOWER
erk.......count as pass hor?????
more to come in d next post =)
dun cincai grab my pics plz.....
plz ask for my permission 1st (i noe u guyz wun ask la)

m currently listening to dis song noh =)

a letter to ue

A letter to dadi and mami....



i have never expressed my feelings to you....my beloved ones
all these years i have been keeping it to myself
there's a lot of things i wanted to say....want to tell you
before i started writing this post, i already know what i wanted to say
now...when i just started to type the first alphabet, my brain went blank
totally blank....i have lost my words
its just so hard to express it in english as my english is not good
i have always know that dadi and mami love me the most since i am born
you have always longed for a daughter and that makes a clear gap on how you have cared,loved and treated me throughout these 19years and 7months
i have never complained about my appearance
but why couldn't i be like all other girls????
i want to be pretty and cute too
why must it be me???
the more i grow up the more uneasy i feel about my appearance
but nothing could change it....i can only learn how to accept it
i never blame you on this
i am glad that i am born without any disability and that's enough
i know that i have not been a good girl all these while
i have been really disobedient, naughty and naive
i have always got whatever i wanted
brothers have always complain about the unfairness
you have really spoilt me too much
i was once so naive that i nagged n bugged you everyday to send me here to further my studies
i tried anything i could do just to come here
i was really happy that i could finally achieve one of my dreams to further my studies overseas since i was a kid
i was so excited and anticipated for that day to arrive
counting down the days make me feel like i am not ready for all these...i am not willing to leave
i can always remember the day you sent me off to persuade my dream
tears dropped uncontrollably showing the unwillingness to let go
even until now....everytime you send me off tears has never bid farewell
from that very second i have to learn to grow up....be more independent
i could no longer stand behind,letting you to protect me and let you handle all the problems and obstacles
i have never know the obstacles that lies beneath every second of life because i know that no matter what you will always be right there with me
without you beside me,everything seems so hard and impossible
now that i learn that the reality of this world is cruel
survival skills and money seems to be the factors that have troubled me
i am always trying my best to do well in my studies and earn lot of money too to pay off all my expenses
its really hard...i know i am useless but i really tried my best
my studies....my result...HD and D has seem to be getting further from me
i could no longer has that achievement anymore
i have been really homesick
really just too homesick to get concentrated on my studies
you have open the cage and let go of me wishing for a better future for me
and that has always been what i wanted
but why???why have i regretted so much on choosing this path????
i should have just stay back in malaysia to continue my studies before furthering it here
friends told me that i had missed and lost the fun that i should have enjoyed
schooling back there is really more relaxed and fun
its my mistake
every kids has always wished for pursuing their studies overseas including me
when we reach this foreign land,yes i admit i am really happy that my dream has come true
its just like a bird who has just been let out of the cage,enjoying the freedom she never has before
sooner or later the birdie will start to feel tired and sad of this...she could no longer stay comfortably in her cage without the need of worrying about any single thing
people has always say that love is blind...now that i would like to say that dreams are blind
i have always been wondering too if i have chosen the right course
you said its my life and you wanted me to choose on my own
dadi has always been my idol
i admire that you worked in the hospital laboratory before and this has always make me feel so proud
and this has always been set in my mind that i wanted to be like you
thats why i have chosen this biomedical science and molecular biology
asking myself again now....is it really what i wanted to do???
i can only say no it's not
i really regretted choosing this course over engineering which is what i really wanted to do
well...perhaps there is no more turning back
so now no matter how hard it is for me....no matter how many times i failed badly and upset you....i will do all i could do to finish this course
i just want to say it in a simple way::::::::::::::::
THANKS for EVERYTHING


its father's day today
dadi its the 2nd time i am celebrating this special day without you
i am really lack of words now
i just want to wish you HAPPY FATHER'S DAY
and I LUB UE


i would like to share 3songs today....expressing my words through the songs
although the lyrics said mami....but dadi....its for you as well

this song represents the naive SAB before....


this song is what i want to tell you now....


this song is what i want to tell you in the future....






i miss my family so much
i have been crying every single day
its just so funny that i can be so happy laughing this second and totally turned 180 degrees being emotional letting my tears flow down
its not that i want to be like this
i just couldn't control myself
your voice...your smile...your everything just couldn't stop running through my mind
i just want to go back home
can you bring me back home????
back to where i belong

it hasn't been raining for a few days
but today it rained
the rain woke me up from my dream
i walked out to the balcony helplessly and cried
even the sky knows that i miss u


LovE,
SaB
xoxoxo

randomly feeling bored

yesterday was black friday....friday d 13th
normally ppl wud say TGIF....if u dunno wad it means i tell u bah...TGIF means ThankGodItsFriday.....but i dun feel TGIF yesterday....bcoz its a black friday
apparently i canceled all my schedulessss except workin in d morning lo
damn it i was being so superstitious la....
coz there's a damn fcuking fat n scary black cat wondering ard my apartment
fcukin stupid cat owez scared d hell out of me at nitez....goddamnit
T.T dun wanna HAK for d whole yr wei so dun go out betta.....
yea la...being a vampire...for sure when d sun is so damn high up i wud b sleeping like a pig
slept from 12 till 7-ish....den straight away called my cousinz
OMG!!!!!!walao wei....crying????erk.......
haven hear her cry for such a damn long time d wei....dun even rmb d last time was when d
well...she had her finance wad eva stuff exam....n she said she's so gonna fail d exam
OMG.....she fail eh????she will fail oso o?????
adui....wad eva la.....try to pujuk her bak till my saliva oso dry d....
my gosh...i juz woke up n nd to tam fan ppl....my brain factory still not operating la....
GEEEEZZZ luckily she lauf bak jor =D
look ppl....if u tink u're gonna fail den fail la....wad for cry since it was a past tense d????juz move on n concentrate on d next paper.....wait until u get ur results den if reli fail tat time cry still lai de ji baaaaaaaa....save ur tears n till tat time satu kali pour out...lidat baru song maaaa....lolx

sianz.....holiday 1week oni....damn sianz sianz sianz liao.....
i'm reli a damn piggy vampire =.o
c la.....my look now...wakao wei....damn terrible laaaaaaaaaaa
my fren played wit my fon juz now n force me.....FORCE me to post this damn yong sui pic up
shit laaaaa....taken dis pic yesterday b4 startin to work.....damn fcuking yong sui










WARNING!!!!!!if u got heart attack o wad....plz b prepared....u might amen when u c d following pic....o u can now proceed to d "X" n off dis window.....up to u.....amen not my business o!!!!
wellz....last nite i had been listening to dis two songs....continuously
yeap....if u listen to d songs according to sequence....its reli damn nice lo....
lub it to itsy bitsy bits......make me cry oni T.T
some how all of my frenz asked me...how come i owez listen to such a COLD DOOR (direct translation from chinese) song but owez damn nice one...bcoz i GENG ma XD

hope u guyz like d songs too......enjoy =)

money minded

current mood : moody + fan arh
y y y y y y y??????????????
its all bcoz of MONEY!!!!!!!!!!
i went to atm to withdraw money to pay for my rental
lalala....was damn hapi la tat time
BUT
WTF?????!!!!!!!!!
y left so few oni????where my money hilang liao???????
i was so stunned n speechless.....i've got no idea at all where it all went
where did i spent it on????how did i spent till 1k gone in less than 2weeks???
halo!!!!!! OnE ThousanD wei T.T
come bak n check thru my on9 statement
its all de rentals n supplementary exam fees for my last sems' fault T.T
y is my rental so exp????????i reli cant afford it any longer
i'm soooo POOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOR now =(
i nd money....yes i nd money!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i've gotta start looking for a 2nd job to cover up all my expenses =(
i cudnt tell mami tat i'm omoz bankrupt coz i noe she wud surely send me money but i reli dun wan her money.....i reli wanna earn it on my own as i owez used to......to pay off all of my expenses....but d price of omoz everything has gone up....increasing dramatically till i feel i'm suffocating
my brain....my mind....is all bout money money money now......Money isnt everything........
it can buy a bed - but not sleep
it can buy a clock - but not time
it can buy a book - but not knowledge
it can buy u a position - but not respect
it can buy u medicine - but not health
it can buy u blood - but not life
so u c....money isnt everything....n it often causes pain n suffering....i tell u dis bcoz i m ur fren......n as a fren.....i wanna take away all ur pain n suffering.....


SO SEND ME ALL UR MONEY N I'LL SUFFER FOR U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sab holiday....fren exam

(u can find dis in my human pets tale in facebook)

FOR THOSE WHO R FACING EXAMzzzzzz.......
i've got a suggestion XD

Make a copy of all lecture notes...Burn d original into ashes...Mix wit water n drink it...All will assimilate into ur blood n carry to ur brain...u will score 100 marks!!!
But dun throw d photocopy notes lar, in case brain disk crashed lo...at least still can refer lae =)
If urs is MCQ exams, n if u dunno d answer, roll d 2B pencil 3 times n average d number...Use tat number n c where it stops at d ABCDE XD
Also, when u enter d exam hall, point to 5 persons around u...repeat
"u fail u fail" n "I pass"...of coz in ur heart only larh...otherwise ppl will whack u *faints*
lolx....its superstitious but it might works XD
worth to visualise it in ur head to boost up ur confidence \(^_^)/

ALL THE BEST!!!!

GOOD LUCK!!!!!!!!+U +U +U!!!!!!!GAMBATEH!!!!!!!!!

p/s: got song for dis post geh...but my internet quota finish d....so cant upload any songs...by da way....tat song is "考试中"....a damn cute song

my niece turned 1 on sunday....haven got d pics from dem yet coz according to mami....everyone at home is sick...including my baby niece valerie T.T **hope they can get well soon**

my baby valerie....xiao xi xi =) got leng lui ma????she's juz like a photocopy series of my bro oh~~~n got look a bit like me oso oh.....teehee =)

another homesick post

i've been very HOMESICK........
getting serious after my mum msn me on thursday
was totally moody after seeing her msg
i hate family issues
been awake d whole nite tryin to study....
nth went in my brain....nth at all
so many things running thru my mind...my brain
tears flowed out slowly.....cudnt control it
decided to sms mami early in d morning
apologizes on behalf of dadi....on d -ve side....yes he was wrong n he reli shud tink b4 he acts....but on d +ve side....it shows tat he care n love her so much....i'm reli scared....i dun wanna c anything bad happen in my family....i've seen enuf since young...been thru all d ups n downs....i'm reli tired of it....wheneva an issue arise i felt so useless....i can oni stand aside in d corner alone...crying....now tat i've grown up....i start to express my feelings....n of cos i'm not brave enuf to say it out...technologies r a great help at dis time....n i dun wan dem to c me keep crying....i hafta hide myself from dem....continue crying alone.....i lub my family so much tat i reli dun wan anything bad to happen...not a single one...i cant lose anyone of dem....my loved ones....i miss dem so much....i've been cryin every single day....cudnt control....i can b so hapi n cheerful d second b4 n totally turned 360 degrees d next second....its like all of a sudden d tears dropped without any acknowledgment....i'm shocked too...i can oni say tat 想念是会呼吸的痛....i told her i'm really homesick....i envy my frenz...i envy dem transferring bak to msia to study bcos dey r damn homesick like me....i said i wanna go bak to study....i juz wanna b somewhere near my family n home...we r kids....n yes kids r ambitious....every kids wud wan to hav d chance to further their studies overseas....including me...we wud try anything we cud do to get ourselves overseas....when we're sent here we r so hapi....finally out of d cage...flying freedomly without any tots...sooner o later we're bored of dis....we started to miss those days when we're still in d cage...d symptom of homesick started to show up....now oni we noe tat home is owes d warmest n best place eva....i juz wanna go home....juz wanna go home.....i got an instinct....i noe i wud fail badly dis time....i'm juz too homesick to get concentrated on my studies...i noe i'm a failure...i noe i've upset dem...they put so much hope in me but in return i let dem down...i dun mind starting all over again in msia....juz bring me home to d place i belong to....i'm freaking homesick....mum replied me saying dey r fine...no matter how hard it is she wans me to b brave to finish my studies for myself n not for dem....n ask me not to say i wanna go bak to study anymore....when she noes tat i'm gonna fail again...her response is different dis time...normally she wud kind of scold me but not reli scold...dis time she says its alrite...juz do betta next time...tears had neva stopped...invigilator were shocked to c me crying throughout d exam...keep askin if i'm alrite...NO I'M NOT....i betta stop talkin bout dis...tears keep dropping again *wipe my tears*


after exam i went out wit rakish,elaine n crystal to do some shopping n dinner
crystal like sth chinese....so we decided to go to Hawker for dinner =) hawker is owes soooo bz n full....we waited for more 30minutes to get a table...geeeeez
i performed a trick b4 d dinner.....i was sooo nervous but luckily it all work out rite =)

being typical msian....dis is wad we decided to order...sambal kangkung
sweet n sour pork
hainanese chicken
mapo tofu

elaine d JB gal enjoying her dinner =)rakish originally a Miri boy den moved to Selangor =)crystal d french gal.....she is juz sooooooo pretty

HAPPY HOLIDAY n enjoy ur trips......i'll c u guys in sem 2 in 8weeks time =)

i'm sowie i freaked u guys out dese few days cos i'm reli emo....sowie
sowie to jazzie as well cos i FFFK(fcukin fong fei kei) on u yesterday =(

i'm currently listening to dis song =)

a historical moment

THANK YOU for reading my crap bloggie =)
i'm proud to announce tat it has juz reached 1115 numbers of visit at 8.08pm!!!!!
YES~~~wad a coincidence wit all those numbers.....its my bday date 881115 =)
this is a historical moment of my life **laufs** to share wit all of u **hooray**it has been great blogging here for d past 1month wit 33posts....i'm hapi tat all of u supported my blog which is a baby blog compared to all those fancy n amateurs ones....there has been alot of ups n downs throughout these whole 33posts....the happiness n sadness....i've shared wit u all n thx for walking thru wit me all d times =) u guys r d best my dear frenz....n to those anonymous too...thx for reading my blog..i HEART u all to itsy bitsy bits xoxoxo (for those ppl i hate n i noe u read my blog....sowie la...i dun feel like thanking u)

i'm currently listening to dis song =)
~BE WITH ME & HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME~
hope tat all of u gonna be wit me n stay on reading my blog....n d bday song hahaha cos it reached my bday date so pandai pandai put a bday song here XD

vAMPiR3 cl0N3 0f hANtU

halooo got miss hantu mou??? \(^_^)/
starting to get supa lazy to blog d moh...sianz noh
ok la i'll do a supa fast blog today cos i'm SUPA TIRED....its 6.52am now
GEEEEEEEZ i've been hantu again noh XD
so i woke up at 2pm cos obviously i throw away my lappie at 4.30am

wake up -> groceries -> cook n eat n msn n fb -> BIG ARGUMENT wit stupiak bro -> hugging my lappie n cry -> bro come for settlement by offering cooking me lamb chop -.-" -> eat again -> still stickin my eyes to my screen -> continuous eating -> laundry -> eating -> bath -> walked down to buy coke as i'm cravin for it to boost me up -> eating -> of cos still cant leave my lappie yet -> eating -> finally get to msn wit my CLONE \(^_^)/ -> eat eat eat!!!nonstop eating like pig!!! -> FINALLY touched my BIO212 @ 5am -> eat eat again!!! ->blogging -> gonna nap a while [walile....totally slacking wooooo!!!!fuiyoh mati d la]

i lub my chocolate swirl bavarian cake to d max XDnow i'm looking like vampire again

damn loooo....i'm over confident wit my BIO212...sei lo dis time...c jor past exam paper juz now i was like WTF....so hard noh....no ABCDE lemme shoot lae =X all muz sendiri crack head n po pe down one...hohoho now oni start to kan cheong d too late liao looo sab sab!!!!!!early early noe ma gd lo....every time last minute de....den later cant finish study cry again...memang serves myself right laaaarh...BAKA!!!!****hopefully tmr exam can lemme po pe sth n pass noh****
HANTU +U noh~~~~~~

sianz la...nd to meet up my BMS264 group mate tmr after exam to do d peer assessment stuff...mati la me....i missed so many meetings b4 due to balik from msia late + appointment wit doc.....n i got a last minute stupiak gastrol den cant attend d oral presentation....DIE...my marks sure they gimme low like shit nah =( suan le bah....

y is everything soooo ngam geh????
1st my dadi zra zra transfer bak to miri curtin from usa n damn him keep tempting me go curtin wit him
2nd getting to noe more n more ppl from miri curtin (including my CLONE)
3rd i wanna do engineering....curtin miri sounds gd
4th everyone dere nia...make me wanna go dere oso =(
MAMI!!!!!i wanna go miri curtin....can party gao gao dere...lolx XD

WAAAA!!!!!BIG ANNOUNCEMENT!!!!!!!!
I FOUND MY CLONE!!!!!!!!!
ok...i'm damn shiok chatting wit my CLONE(i'm sowie to all of u bcos i kinda ignored ur msn msges....lololol sowie yah)....we r born in d same day larrr....881115 =D i'm finding dis sooo fun....we got d exact same personalities -.-" semua sama saje....OMIGOSH!!!!i can c myself in him....die lu cham lu....d oni diff is he's a guy n i'm a gal -.-" erh tat vampire like dark red so i'm gonna use dark red for dis post(dis is d darkest red i can find -.-")

TADAAAAA!!!!!!introducing my leng zai n cute clone to all of u bah (gals u can cuci mata liao)


haha....damn it i lurve his drawings larrrrrr....TERlalu CUTE!!!!yes tats his sign =)
i'm currently listening to dis song =)

starting to have fun

walao....i hate havin exam during public holiday
yalah....wasting my precious time as i nd to get on d 2nd train to perth n 2nd train n bus to uni
it was like soooooo damn early @_@
9am exam n i flew out of my place at 7am...geeeeeeeez
so.....exam was alrite but i din study...so not ok for me T.T
nvm la...fail ma fail lo....cant save jor
BYE BMS 264
after exam i went to my auntssss house
had laksa for my brunch n its delicious....yummy yo
next destination = park + playground

its a nice day (FINALLY after raining continuously for a couple of days)

yi xin's bored of playin d swing alone n started to hang herself n swing lidattong xin swinging in d air when being lifted up by her dad in d balancing look alike stuff
yes....dis is my uncle....he's juz like a kid....tats y we all lub him <3

qi hang is sand-swimming
d size 5's foot step of her life....yes its MEEEEEEi lub playin wit d swing.....swinging out all d unhappiness n swing out d journey of my life

had dinner in another aunt's house....too many ppl too lil foods =S
den we headed to MALAGA for laser gun (sth like dis la...duno wads it call)
we played from 7.30pm to 9pm
it was soooooo FUN
we payed for 2games...but we're all damn shiok n enjoyin d game sooo much tat we played another one......sooooo mm se tak to end d WAR XD

the group of 7......yes spot my uncle dere?????told ya he's still a kid
hantu n hantu's bro memang like to pose la....(post d cant c my face one cos d other pics make me feel like laufing....imagine me wit tat garang face....lmao)
yap....i'm ranked 4th throughout d 3games
branda took my socks causing me tak ada socks to wear....hence bcum like dis (blame myself too as i noe its bleedin dah during d game but didnt care bout it n continue gaming!!!!its team work n i cant giv up half way during d war....nd to ensure my team WIN n yes we WON!!!!)i'm currently listening to dis song =)


next up n d final paper is GENETIC ENGINEERING
i lub gene eng so much tat i'm startin to party now XD

last nite some FCUKING BASTARD n yes its d same IDIOTIC BASTARD.....spoiled my leng leng mood thru msn!!!!!FCUK U laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

next mission = after exam will start to delete msn contacts!!!!!URGH!!!!!!!