heyz guyz...i'm sowie for neglecting my bloggie for such a long time there's alot to update actually but oh well u noe me well...i'm LAZY so i'll try my best to write as much as i can....lolx =D so plzzzz stop nagging n ask me to update d la coz i'm doin it now altho its sooo gonna b a piece of shyt >___________________< been reli bz for d past 6weeks o so tats y i dun hav d chance to grab a nice cup of hot choc n stick my arse to my beddie n do some blogging....i'm sowie my days were filled up wit eat sleep chat work drama so i guess i kinda fully used up my holidays n i'm glad tat i did =D
its been some sort of i dunno how to say it but mb i shud say it has bcum a habit for me to chat wit dese two particular great ppl....ANGE DA PANDIE GRANNIE n my CLONE still rmb when pandie cant on9 for a certain period it made me missed her like hell lotzzz T.T but luckily we still can get to sms but i felt sowie n guilty for causing her wasting so much money to reload her fon...sowie ANGE >.< i lub dem to itsy bitsy bits <3
generally i had a fight wit d doorman aka d DOG on saturday which made me quit my job in d restaurant LOL he asked d other staffs to go opposite d street n giv out d discount vouchers n for sure they all came n complain to me so i said to d DOG tat he shud n he can do it himself n tats his job...y d hell does he nd d waitstaff to do it n hello OLD DOG...none of d restaurant in northbridge asked deir waitstaff to do d freaking useless thingy ok..... oh well...d DOG got pissed n walked into d bar n said he wud hav do it himself if he cud n shouted at me tat its fine den he'll do it alone den i got pissed as well n straight away grab d vouchers n menu n walked off d restaurant to d opposite street when he saw me walkin out he told me he dun wan me to do it n asked me to walk bak in ignored him n continue walking my way out den he fcuking came across n fcuking lectured me in front of so many pedestrian damn it...i'm doing wad u wanted d wad d fcuk r u still unhapi bout fcukin old dog??? its jz standing out dere in d cold for fcukin 30mins n i noe d waitstaffs can manage everything in d restaurant without me for 30mins coz it wun b bz tat time gosh...he fcuking acted like he's d manager n he's in charge sayin dey r his staff n shud listen to him....HELLO OLD DOG....i neva rmb d boss said u're d manager o person in charge ok....ITS ME WHO'S IN CHARGE OF EVERYTHING OK DUMB ARSE den he ordered me to go bak n fcukin scolded me childish WTF being me...for sure i dun even giv a damn n continue standing dere n he started to threaten me he wud walk off since i dun wanna walk bak... oh yea???fine den...u pissed me off...i had enuf of u n its time for me to quit n a gud reason for me to quit...guyz look...he fcukin pointed at ur nose n use his finger to ask u to come over like u're a dog o wad...every single time ok...d waitstaffs complained not onli once but everyday...n he fcukin sexually harassed one of d staff n caused her to quit i straight away walked bak to d restaurant n throwed everything den took my stuffs wit me n said loudly "GO IN N TELL D BOSS I'M GONE" den walked away every waitstaffs r stun n freaked off LOL i called one of d chef n told him wad happened n asked him to tell d boss den for sure d boss keep callin me n sms me ask me to go bak BUT i'm sowie la...i cant stand it anymore... i dun wanna suffer working dere anymore...its not reli a hapi working environment... i'm onli hapi workin on sunday lunch when its onli me running all d bar n d floor wit jack n jim n jay in d kitchen....we had so much fun =D jack...jim...jay...wendy...nicky...melissa...pat...daniel...desmond...nicole i heart u guyz n u guyz r d best =D shyt i'm fcuking JOBLESS now...lmao
uni started...gonna b d 2nd week of uni...kinda nervous coz d units r damn hard dis sem hopefully i can do well n achieve gud grades for pandiee n clone n ahui n d rest out dere....gambateh for a whole new sem...all d best =D no more slacking dis sem....muz do well n fight all d way till d end...AZA AZA thx to clone for waking me up everyday for uni =D skype call wit him has been on d whole nitez so tat he can BOOO to wake me up in d morning its reli so saweet of him =D da ben dan...reli thx alot =D
dramas are gud....i can fill up d pail wit my tears... shyt la...every single drama tat i watch sure make me cry one T.T make my eyes so swollen everyday.... dey said i'm way too emo d....cried too much...i'm a ham bao
clone was kinda not in d mood today.... i can feel d hurt he felt...it hurts alot he trust me alot n i'm glad bout it =D i felt so helpless....he's reli too special to me tat i felt guilty n sowie for him if i can't help him n if my advises sux i can feel tat u're hiding sth when u on ur webby...its jz so not u... lookin helplessly at my screen...wondering wads wrong wit u...i reli dunno y but i noe its bcoz of TAT...was hopin tat when u're tired n bored playin wit ur webby u wud tell me....tok to me finally...u let out all d hidden words in ur heart...i tried to help...hopin its d best...i cried da ben dan....jz wanna let u noe tat plz dun keep everything deep inside ur heart...sha dan me will owez owez owez b here 4u n b ur rubbish bin......coz u r special to me...plz rmb dis
shyt....i'm tired n sleepy d...i'm off to beddie now d latest n up-to-date sab for now currently listening to dis song =D
walao wei yaaaaaaa...... paiseh for not updating my bloggie =X dis is gonna b d fastest post i've eva done...took me less than 10mins XD
m i reli tat bz till i've got no time to update???? i dunno d answer as well.... as usual i was being vampire....yes nonstop VAMPIRING work n work n work everyday reli make me sianzzz...DULAN siii so fcuking tired n stressed wit my JOBS yalar...morning work in hotel den nite in d restaurant it reli sux when i finish work late at nite n going bak to work damn fcukin early in d morning again URRRRGHHHHHH!!!!!!!! sab sab mau mati dah n yes d condition get worst now.... i'm sick...seriously sick but i still cant help stop vampiring XD i've got dis stupid toothache....perhaps its d stupid wisdom tooth...damn it my face is so swollen bcoz of d fcukin tooth....wad????wisdom tooth come out oni got wisdom izzit?????2ndly i got sore throat *cough cough* wahaha my voice bcum so man d....3rdly i kena flu *sniff sniff* sounds lagi man wei.... sometimes i reli feel like fainting when i'm walkin bak home after work.... dis winter is reli too cold n in addition wit my stupiak shiat sickness....its reli killing meeee d cool breeze....its soooo cold n dry till my eyes n nose damn sore la...pain si si =X
currently addicted to MEETOTO....met some cool n nice n fun ppl in dere XD
sem 1 result's out...... its totally wad i've expected to get =X one word.......SHIAT 2nd word......FCUK 3rd word.......DAMN 4th word.......SIANZ 5th word......AMEN a big big big big BIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIGGGGGGGGG thx to my dearest irreplacable for cheering me up =)
ok....nd to clarify tat all d pics are taken totally MANUALLY ok...dun ask me anymore
THEME:::::::::SITOBELEI::::::::::: its all REAL sitobelei currently listening to dis song =)
everyone's flying off today T.T sim's flight was pretty on time =) wahahaha.....amy's n jessie's flight bak home wit tigerairways at 9.35pm got delayed till 1am wad can i say huh????? amy memang damn unlucky lo... everytime her flight sure got macam macam de....EVERY SINGLE TIME bro's flying off to hk n china for study tour at 12.15am later i'm gonna b home alone for d whole 2weeks T.T ~~~lonely....i'm miss lonely....i'm nobody~~~~~ my place is consider near to d airport i can hear n c planes flying pass my place everyday tinkin.....i wanna go home when can i finally go bak home again??? aikz.....i got a job interview for HOLIDAY INN tomolo cham le la....i've got no confidence at all i've got a feeling tat..... i noe i'll screw up my interview T.T i noe i surely cant get d job T.T
hmmm.....browse thru my stuffs today n found my photography stuffs dis is one of d portfolio.....d theme is city of light
d 1st 4 pics were taken at KING'S PARK imagine sab was alone dere from nite till d next morning juz to capture some nice pics for d portfolio = = d worst thing was tat....it was spring n its still damn cold = =
d following 3pics were taken at BELL TOWER erk.......count as pass hor????? more to come in d next post =) dun cincai grab my pics plz..... plz ask for my permission 1st (i noe u guyz wun ask la)
i have never expressed my feelings to you....my beloved ones all these years i have been keeping it to myself there's a lot of things i wanted to say....want to tell you before i started writing this post, i already know what i wanted to say now...when i just started to type the first alphabet, my brain went blank totally blank....i have lost my words its just so hard to express it in english as my english is not good i have always know that dadi and mami love me the most since i am born you have always longed for a daughter and that makes a clear gap on how you have cared,loved and treated me throughout these 19years and 7months i have never complained about my appearance but why couldn't i be like all other girls???? i want to be pretty and cute too why must it be me??? the more i grow up the more uneasy i feel about my appearance but nothing could change it....i can only learn how to accept it i never blame you on this i am glad that i am born without any disability and that's enough i know that i have not been a good girl all these while i have been really disobedient, naughty and naive i have always got whatever i wanted brothers have always complain about the unfairness you have really spoilt me too much i was once so naive that i nagged n bugged you everyday to send me here to further my studies i tried anything i could do just to come here i was really happy that i could finally achieve one of my dreams to further my studies overseas since i was a kid i was so excited and anticipated for that day to arrive counting down the days make me feel like i am not ready for all these...i am not willing to leave i can always remember the day you sent me off to persuade my dream tears dropped uncontrollably showing the unwillingness to let go even until now....everytime you send me off tears has never bid farewell from that very second i have to learn to grow up....be more independent i could no longer stand behind,letting you to protect me and let you handle all the problems and obstacles i have never know the obstacles that lies beneath every second of life because i know that no matter what you will always be right there with me without you beside me,everything seems so hard and impossible now that i learn that the reality of this world is cruel survival skills and money seems to be the factors that have troubled me i am always trying my best to do well in my studies and earn lot of money too to pay off all my expenses its really hard...i know i am useless but i really tried my best my studies....my result...HD and D has seem to be getting further from me i could no longer has that achievement anymore i have been really homesick really just too homesick to get concentrated on my studies you have open the cage and let go of me wishing for a better future for me and that has always been what i wanted but why???why have i regretted so much on choosing this path???? i should have just stay back in malaysia to continue my studies before furthering it here friends told me that i had missed and lost the fun that i should have enjoyed schooling back there is really more relaxed and fun its my mistake every kids has always wished for pursuing their studies overseas including me when we reach this foreign land,yes i admit i am really happy that my dream has come true its just like a bird who has just been let out of the cage,enjoying the freedom she never has before sooner or later the birdie will start to feel tired and sad of this...she could no longer stay comfortably in her cage without the need of worrying about any single thing people has always say that love is blind...now that i would like to say that dreams are blind i have always been wondering too if i have chosen the right course you said its my life and you wanted me to choose on my own dadi has always been my idol i admire that you worked in the hospital laboratory before and this has always make me feel so proud and this has always been set in my mind that i wanted to be like you thats why i have chosen this biomedical science and molecular biology asking myself again now....is it really what i wanted to do??? i can only say no it's not i really regretted choosing this course over engineering which is what i really wanted to do well...perhaps there is no more turning back so now no matter how hard it is for me....no matter how many times i failed badly and upset you....i will do all i could do to finish this course i just want to say it in a simple way:::::::::::::::: THANKS for EVERYTHING
its father's day today dadi its the 2nd time i am celebrating this special day without you i am really lack of words now i just want to wish you HAPPY FATHER'S DAY andI LUB UE
i would like to share 3songs today....expressing my words through the songs although the lyrics said mami....but dadi....its for you as well
this song represents the naive SAB before....
this song is what i want to tell you now....
this song is what i want to tell you in the future....
i miss my family so much i have been crying every single day its just so funny that i can be so happy laughing this second and totally turned 180 degrees being emotional letting my tears flow down its not that i want to be like this i just couldn't control myself your voice...your smile...your everything just couldn't stop running through my mind i just want to go back home can you bring me back home???? back to where i belong
it hasn't been raining for a few days but today it rained the rain woke me up from my dream i walked out to the balcony helplessly and cried even the sky knows that i miss u
yesterday was black friday....friday d 13th normally ppl wud say TGIF....if u dunno wad it means i tell u bah...TGIF means ThankGodItsFriday.....but i dun feel TGIF yesterday....bcoz its a black friday apparently i canceled all my schedulessss except workin in d morning lo damn it i was being so superstitious la.... coz there's a damn fcuking fat n scary black cat wondering ard my apartment fcukin stupid cat owez scared d hell out of me at nitez....goddamnit T.T dun wanna HAK for d whole yr wei so dun go out betta..... yea la...being a vampire...for sure when d sun is so damn high up i wud b sleeping like a pig slept from 12 till 7-ish....den straight away called my cousinz OMG!!!!!!walao wei....crying????erk....... haven hear her cry for such a damn long time d wei....dun even rmb d last time was when d well...she had her finance wad eva stuff exam....n she said she's so gonna fail d exam OMG.....she fail eh????she will fail oso o????? adui....wad eva la.....try to pujuk her bak till my saliva oso dry d.... my gosh...i juz woke up n nd to tam fan ppl....my brain factory still not operating la.... GEEEEZZZ luckily she lauf bak jor =D look ppl....if u tink u're gonna fail den fail la....wad for cry since it was a past tense d????juz move on n concentrate on d next paper.....wait until u get ur results den if reli fail tat time cry still lai de ji baaaaaaaa....save ur tears n till tat time satu kali pour out...lidat baru song maaaa....lolx
sianz.....holiday 1week oni....damn sianz sianz sianz liao..... i'm reli a damn piggy vampire =.o c la.....my look now...wakao wei....damn terrible laaaaaaaaaaa my fren played wit my fon juz now n force me.....FORCE me to post this damn yong sui pic up shit laaaaa....taken dis pic yesterday b4 startin to work.....damn fcuking yong sui
WARNING!!!!!!if u got heart attack o wad....plz b prepared....u might amen when u c d following pic....o u can now proceed to d "X" n off dis window.....up to u.....amen not my business o!!!! wellz....last nite i had been listening to dis two songs....continuously yeap....if u listen to d songs according to sequence....its reli damn nice lo.... lub it to itsy bitsy bits......make me cry oni T.T some how all of my frenz asked me...how come i owez listen to such a COLD DOOR (direct translation from chinese) song but owez damn nice one...bcoz i GENG ma XD
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