Saturday, August 23, 2008

i'm such a noob >________<

昨天不知为何,心血来潮的想画些什么给他
不曾使用过电脑的任何program来画画
想挑战自己
我的limit到底在那里???
photoshop对我来说是熟悉的
但,也非常的陌生
每次拍了新作品多多少少都会使用photoshop来edit些什么的
对我来说是sap sap sui的
就像我的banner...拍完了我就会留在学校edit...因为我的lappie没photoshop T___T
还以为老哥的lappie有photoshop...谁知...kip xim ar...不能用 >.<
只好用自己的lappie来download trial version >.<
idea是有了...可是不知怎么的trial version好像很多东西都没法用
非常的kip xim T____T
没放弃
失败了...再来过
他竟然还吐了一句..."不要等下明天都画不完"
哇...竟然不说些鼓励的话...真kip xim
好像真的看soi我...伤心啊
suak...过分啊
谢谢panda整晚都陪着我
想哭的时候有她的安尉
谢谢她不断的鼓励和逗我笑 =D
他回来了...可是我就是没画好
idea不停的更改...最后就随便的画
不知不觉就画出了一些些东西
终于笑了...看到了头绪
他不停的问到底在画什么
只好print screen给他看了
得到的回应让我沮丧了
哭了...觉得自己真白痴...怎么画的那么烂啊
边哭边画...就只想把我的心意画完
不在乎他喜不喜欢...我都会把它画完的
我...真的不在乎吗???
不在乎那为什么还要哭啊???
我...在乎
沉默了
他又察觉到我的不对劲了
他...问了我很多问题
我...回答着...可是不知道为什么眼泪....也跟着狂飙了
很多话想对他说...可是不知道要怎么说
只能用一句谢谢来代表所有我想对他说的
说会陪我一直到我把它完成
感动了
也知道他累了...不停的劝...但,他却迟迟不肯睡
自责了
慢慢的...他睡着了
mute了mic...不想吵到他
听到他熟睡的声音...我傻傻的笑了
整晚为了画画没吃到东西....凌晨时...开始gastric了
疼痛的感觉真的很不好受
不能半途而废...一定要画完它
5.30am....我终于完成了
松了一口气
我知道作品很糟糕...我真的是个noob
我也很抱歉
笨蛋....对不起

这是我小小的心意...给最特别的他

Monday, August 18, 2008

jiwang >.<

用ang mo写部落格总是让我词穷
很早就想用吊儿郎当的华语来稀里哈啦一下

可是华语也让我很头痛啊~~~~~~

救命啊~~~~

这个post纯粹只是cincai来的啦

paiseh lae >.<

最近也不知怎么了...几乎每天都很jiwang >.<
可能是jiwang的歌听太多了吧

前几天爹地度过了他的49岁生日
已经是第3年没能陪在他身边一起庆祝了
也慢慢的习惯了这种感觉
可是一向很emo的我...不知不觉的...让泪水不由自主的淋湿了双颊
爹地很内向...内向的他似乎不懂得如何表达他的情感
或许男生都几乎是这样吧
一句dadi i love u...没有一次是可以得到回应的...不要紧的...因为你的宝贝大小姐我感受得到你心里那个回应
从小疼爱我的心让我渐渐的习惯,也了解到这些事是不需要言语来表达的
只要用心感触一定能够感觉到那藏在心里最深处的感受
记得小时候..
.那些无聊的大人们都很喜欢问"妹妹...你爱爹地比较多还是妈咪多一些呢???"
每次都被这无聊的问题考倒了 =S
现在不需思考的...我就可以作答了
爹地妈咪两个都一样重要一样疼爱我一样纵容我...爱你们的心都是一样多的

我的生日你们还记得吗???
再过几个月我就20岁咯
18岁生日时...还好有表姐妹记得
记得表姐特地到阿姨家把礼物送给我...阿姨很冷的就说了一句"哦...你生日哦"
静悄悄我就走回房间了
那是我第一次度过好孤独的生日
还好有一群朋友们的sms祝福着
第二天,考完foundation最后一科,跑出去和表姐妹和朋友吃了一顿饭
表姐说去唱K,然后还丢下我一个人叫我去车帮他们拿东西,原来是礼物呢
走进K房时,P0P P0P P0P的喷到我全身都是...然后大家都唱了生日歌
吓呆了,感动了...不知所错了...真的很谢谢你们
19岁生日时...电话不停的响...比去年多了很多祝福
二哥记得了
考完试的他匆匆忙忙的赶到city买了蛋糕就跑去我家
莫名其妙的...我也管不了那么多...继续读我的书来应付隔天的考试
听到哥和妈通电话...说生
日没什么大不了的嘛...我心酸了
等到8点多...哥终于把早就准备好的蛋糕拿出来了...笑了
20岁的生日会是怎样的呢???
确定的是...又是考试期间.....闷啊~~~~
今年又有谁记得呢???
开心的是今年会是我第一次祝福和我同年同月同日出生的他
气的是他既然会在生日前考完试 >.<

前几天突然的非常jiwang
没有正确的理解你所说的
也没有开口问清楚
心酸了...伤心了...泪水装满了眼眶...撑不住了...稀里哗啦的泪湿了双颊和衣服
我安静了...你察觉到了我的不对劲
告诉你了...我不小心的养成了一个坏习惯...习惯了你的存在和陪伴
你解释了...可是不知道为什么我总是理解错了
你一声都没说的就走出去吹风了
不知所错的哭的更惨了
你回来时我还是一句话也不说
问我怎么了...终于还是跟你说了...这次我终于正确的了解了你所说的
原来是我理解能力差啦~~~~
我很傻吧????呵呵 =p
因为我的无知,不可理喻,蛮不讲理...向你道歉了
笨蛋...真的
对不起耶
你说你也是emo类的
我的心情是很容易可以影响到你的
所以啊...你说以后有什么事一定要跟你说...不要再把所有东西都憋在心里面
谢谢你愿意当我的垃圾桶
那天你毫无保留的跟我说了很多东西
不知不觉的就聊到早上7点多了
谢谢你肯跟我说那么多东西
我也渐渐的更了解你多一点了

信任大考验我成功了 ^ ^
最主要是谢谢你对我的信任
相信我的你...昨晚没set alarm
被你的信任感动的我不想让你失望
非常自动的7点就起床了...等着7.30的到来
初初还有点担心你不接skype call
拨第2通时想用手机打给你了...luckily你接了skype call
了解到你每天都morning call我的感觉了

currently listening to =)
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我们家小熙熙长大咯~~~~
可爱吧???????
我也这么觉得呢 = )
羡慕的话自己去生一个咯 =D

Monday, August 11, 2008

gomenasai >___________<

heyz guyz...i'm sowie for neglecting my bloggie for such a long time
there's alot to update actually but oh well u noe me well...i'm LAZY
so i'll try my best to write as much as i can....lolx =D
so plzzzz stop nagging n ask me to update d la coz i'm doin it now altho its sooo gonna b a piece of shyt >___________________<

been reli bz for d past 6weeks o so tats y i dun hav d chance to grab a nice cup of hot choc n stick my arse to my beddie n do some blogging....i'm sowie
my days were filled up wit eat sleep chat work drama
so i guess i kinda fully used up my holidays n i'm glad tat i did =D


its been some sort of i dunno how to say it but mb i shud say it has bcum a habit for me to chat wit dese two particular great ppl....ANGE DA PANDIE GRANNIE n my CLONE
still rmb when pandie cant on9 for a certain period it made me missed her like hell lotzzz T.T
but luckily we still can get to sms but i felt sowie n guilty for causing her wasting so much money to reload her fon...sowie ANGE >.<
i lub dem to itsy bitsy bits <3


generally i had a fight wit d doorman aka d DOG on saturday which made me quit my job in d restaurant LOL
he asked d other staffs to go opposite d street n giv out d discount vouchers n for sure they all came n complain to me
so i said to d DOG tat he shud n he can do it himself n tats his job...y d hell does he nd d waitstaff to do it n hello OLD DOG...none of d restaurant in northbridge asked deir waitstaff to do d freaking useless thingy ok..... oh well...d DOG got pissed n walked into d bar n said he wud hav do it himself if he cud n shouted at me tat its fine den he'll do it alone den i got pissed as well n straight away grab d vouchers n menu n walked off d restaurant to d opposite street
when he saw me walkin out he told me he dun wan me to do it n asked me to walk bak in ignored him n continue walking my way out
den he fcuking came across n fcuking lectured me in front of so many pedestrian damn it...i'm doing wad u wanted d wad d fcuk r u still unhapi bout fcukin old dog???
its jz standing out dere in d cold for fcukin 30mins n i noe d waitstaffs can manage everything in d restaurant without me for 30mins coz it wun b bz tat time
gosh...he fcuking acted like he's d manager n he's in charge sayin dey r his staff n shud listen to him....HELLO OLD DOG....i neva rmb d boss said u're d manager o person in charge ok....ITS ME WHO'S IN CHARGE OF EVERYTHING OK DUMB ARSE
den he ordered me to go bak n fcukin scolded me childish WTF
being me...for sure i dun even giv a damn n continue standing dere n he started to threaten me he wud walk off since i dun wanna walk bak...
oh yea???fine den...u pissed me off...i had enuf of u n its time for me to quit n a gud reason for me to quit...guyz look...he fcukin pointed at ur nose n use his finger to ask u to come over like u're a dog o wad...every single time ok...d waitstaffs complained not onli once but everyday...n he fcukin sexually harassed one of d staff n caused her to quit
i straight away walked bak to d restaurant n throwed everything den took my stuffs wit me n said loudly "GO IN N TELL D BOSS I'M GONE" den walked away
every waitstaffs r stun n freaked off LOL
i called one of d chef n told him wad happened n asked him to tell d boss
den for sure d boss keep callin me n sms me ask me to go bak
BUT i'm sowie la...i cant stand it anymore... i dun wanna suffer working dere anymore...its not reli a hapi working environment...

i'm onli hapi workin on sunday lunch when its onli me running all d bar n d floor wit jack n jim n jay in d kitchen....we had so much fun =D jack...jim...jay...wendy...nicky...melissa...pat...daniel...desmond...nicole i heart u guyz n u guyz r d best =D
shyt i'm fcuking JOBLESS now...lmao


uni started...gonna b d 2nd week of uni...kinda nervous coz d units r damn hard dis sem hopefully i can do well n achieve gud grades
for pandiee n clone n ahui n d rest out dere....gambateh for a whole new sem...all d best =D
no more slacking dis sem....muz do well n fight all d way till d end...AZA AZA
thx to clone for waking me up everyday for uni =D
skype call wit him has been on d whole nitez so tat he can BOOO to wake me up in d morning its reli so saweet of him =D
da ben dan...reli thx alot =D


dramas are gud....i can fill up d pail wit my tears...
shyt la...every single drama tat i watch sure make me cry one T.T
make my eyes so swollen everyday....
dey said i'm way too emo d....cried too much...i'm a ham bao


clone was kinda not in d mood today.... i can feel d hurt he felt...it hurts alot
he trust me alot n i'm glad bout it =D
i felt so helpless....he's reli too special to me tat i felt guilty n sowie for him if i can't help him n if my advises sux
i can feel tat u're hiding sth when u on ur webby...its jz so not u...
lookin helplessly at my screen...wondering wads wrong wit u...i reli dunno y but i noe its bcoz of TAT...was hopin tat when u're tired n bored playin wit ur webby u wud tell me....tok to me finally...u let out all d hidden words in ur heart...i tried to help...hopin its d best...i cried
da ben dan....jz wanna let u noe tat plz dun keep everything deep inside ur heart...sha dan me will owez owez owez b here 4u n b ur rubbish bin......coz u r special to me...plz rmb dis


shyt....i'm tired n sleepy d...i'm off to beddie now
d latest n up-to-date sab for now

currently listening to dis song =D
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