Monday, November 24, 2008

i'm BAK

Nooooooooooooo i'm not lost in space xD
been neglecting my blog for quite some while >.<
sowie sowie if onli there's readers LOL

okie dokie..its gonna b a damn short n quick update due to my laziness xD

thank GOD its EXAM PERIOD = =
fuggin fuggin fuggin HATE exams to d max n sure no one likes it
my 1st paper was Cell Bio on d morning of my bday = =
i screwed up due to my stupid careless mistakes T^T
bao bei...THANX for keepin me accompany whole nite long on 14th n 15th
n THANX u guyz out dere for all d greetings = )


damn chee cham look = =
mami..hope u do update wit my blog when u come bak from ur holiday
sianz u showing off ur holiday sialz when i'm stress sialz-ing = =
u betta get me some nice stuffs yo xD



i cant belif i'm organising my book...sounds so not sab huh >.<
bah..get me a sniper so i can shoooooot accurately for all 70mcqs tmr
MCQs r mean ok..its neva ez n its an open book exam lagi which makes it lagi CHAM
urgh!!!screw mcqz screw exams = =
microbiology on tuesday n immunology on wednesday n i'll b free sialz like u all FINALLY
i huakin hate ppl typin holiday sial shyts on deir fb status n msn when ppl's havin exam shyts
wadeva...i'm joinin in d holiday sialz in less than 48HOURS xD


wow..its reli quick...its been 2months ^ ^
ooops...yealar balia me memang study till lupa d
luckily my sudd memory lost kembali when u called LOL
i'm a shyt gf i noe = = sowie la i exam ituuuuuuuu

counting down!!!22days till our 1st honeymoon...weeeeeee ^ ^

crap = = i betta get bak to my books
BUHBYE BUHBYE BUHBYE *chuckles*

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

lalala XD

i've got a 15% essay due on friday by 4pm
n yea of coz i haven touch a single bit XD
was in dilema noh =S
its an open essay tho...kinda hate open topic as i sux in makin decision
"discuss immunological aspects of prognosis, pathogenesis n treatment of a human disease"
muz b immunological lagi = =
AAAARRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHH
i've got a few topics tat i'm interested in (not interested at all..but bcoz of d essay boh bian la)
Epilepsy...Parkinson's Disease...Alzheimer's Disease..Dandy-Walker Syndrome which r on d top list
eeeee...hard to make decision la..due on fri d...amen = =
LoL...how bout main dadu n decide XD
Blaaaaaaaaaaaa...ignore me XD

my stupiak lappie crashed down when i'm chatting happily at midnite = =
yea rite...thx for crashin down n put me into shyt mood
system restore was incomplete...wad a failure = =
but oh well..it doesnt matters since i was able to get bak all my docs
i wud die if everythg's gone
my assg..reports..lect slides..tutes..pics..songs..not forgetting my chat history LoL
big big thx to him for acc me whole nite guiding me fixin my lappie
n LoL thx for lecturin me as well = =
duh..i memang dunno how to jaga my lappie wad = =
cant blame me bah XD
sowie for keepin u up till 5am in d morning >.<

sowie i caused troubles again dis noon >.<
din noe d check disks wud take up more than 1hr
i tot its gonna b damn fast like last nite =S
tats y i keep rejectin to giv u a buzz as u're in class
sowie to keep u waiting
sowie to cause u missing 10mins from ur very imp class =S
sowie tat i've made u angry again ='(
i feel bad ='(
ur sms made me feel even worst ='(
its my stupiak fault
stupiak tears keep rollin down
u said if i continue apologizing u'll not hiu me d
erk...but besides from sowie i reli dunno wad to say d =S
we're kinda cold tonite
u're gamin...i'm assg-ing
no one's talkin
its freakin unusual
reli cant get used to dis kinda freakin coldness
i freakin hate dis kinda feelin URGH
i'm sowie....sowie i said it once again

its been 21days <3
its been so saweet of u makin my heart meltz everyday = )
u''re d reason for causing my adrenaline pumping uncontrollably causin my heart rate to increase
our turning point doesnt work out rite in d beginning
at tat moment i felt like givin up
u asked me not to
hence i hold on
we've overcome d hardest moment in our diary
now we've prove tat it was a rite decision choosin for a turnin point
thx for showerin me wit love
thx for caring me wit love
thx for givin me hopes n dreams
thx for makin me belif in foreva once again
loving u..is all i wanna do
SaB is totally fully LueN branded
16th 17th 18th 19th 20th 21st day r d wildest n craziest day tat we've eva hav
esp day 20th...d most most most wildest n craziest day eva
te amo <3



Zuo De Dao 做得到 - Luo Zhixiang 羅志祥

Sunday, September 28, 2008

randomnesssssss

9月24日
我们永远都不会忘记
是一段美好的开始
也是一段伤心的结束
开始跟结束的都很糟糕
不想再多说些什么
终于结束了
过去的就让它过去吧
最主要的是把握现在和放眼未来


这段时间非常谢谢PANDIE
不管多忙碌都好她都陪着我们
谢谢她一直开导我们
很喜欢PANDIE的有话直说性格
喜欢她每次都straight to the point
喜欢她每次都很狠的把话都说得很直
不认识她的人都会觉得她一定是恋爱高手
可是啊这个小妹妹还真的是没恋爱经验呢
她比我们俩都成熟的多
所以我也很喜欢也很主动的把说有事都跟她说
想诉苦也非PANDIE莫属
对他我还是会有所保留
都会想到种种因素
都会顾虑到他的感受
不过自从那一天起我答应了不会再有所保留了
不想再对他有所隐瞒


星期3考microbiology mid sem prac exam
只能说一个字....糟
完全没心情考试
完全不能写字
我的手oche+swollen了
因为我前天笨到用拳头狠狠的punch了墙壁几拳
我傻了...烧坏脑了吗???
那天晚上又犯下了同样的傻事
把他搞得好心痛
那天我唱了"我的心真的受伤了"
唱着唱着
眼泪滴滴答答的流
连他冲好凉了我也没发现到
也把他弄哭了
星期4考immunology mid sem exam
应该是把所有的问题都解决了
也把所有的心事都吐出来了
我们俩又恢复到从前的我们了
不再冷漠了
所以本小姐觉得考的还ok吧
虽然我只是很快的browse thru了6 out of 30lectures = =
完完全全都没读书 = =
考试不到20分钟我就已经做好了
自己也被炸到了 = =
希望都给我一个pass吧 =S


连续几天都没睡好
连续几天都没胃口吃东西
熬了那么多天后我发现我的衣服裤子裙子都松了
这可是好的现象呢 XD


第5天了
很幸福的感觉
没想过他竟然会那么肉麻那么saaweeet
连他自己都被吓到了
剩下的就保密好了
只能说真的好甜蜜咯
呵呵 ^ ^
好期待12月的到来
oh还有哦
计划改了哦
明年的6月和12月我决定回去了
只因为hehehe XD

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

i'm sowie

i noe dere's nth i cud do

i noe dere's nth i cud say

its my fault

i noe u hate me

i'm sowie





its freakin 0440am n i'm still freakin awake
shyt...i'm sooo gonna freakin screw up my fcukin mid sem later

Tuesday, September 23, 2008


20092008

mi piaci
mi piaci
mi piaci
mi piaci
mi piaci
mi piaci
mi piaci
mi piaci
mi piaci

mi piaci

wei yi de wei yi - xiao yu

Thursday, September 18, 2008

出口在哪????

我.......怎么了????
连我自己也不懂
很可笑吧????
呵呵= )


这两天...
情绪起伏的很大...
有感伤的
有伤心的
有好笑的
有好玩的
有开心的
有难忘的
所有的酸甜苦辣统统一次过被我品尝的够
一切都禁在不言中


和他视讯了一整夜
欢笑不成停止过
欢笑中却忽略了她
承认是我们的过错
害得她emo了起来
她不说
但是我们懂
再多的抱歉也弥补不了
因为我们的错误
因为她的不开心
因为她的隐瞒
我哭了
真糟糕
他看到这样的我
害得他心酸了
我很糟糕是吧???
连续把两个人的心情搞砸了
他叫我收拾好心情继续为隔天的考试奋斗
可是我什么都读不进
各自给他们俩send了好长的sms
道歉了
感谢了
感激了
他们两个对我很重要
一个都不能少
千言万语都说不清


昨天又跟他聊了很多
他说了好多东西
昨天的他不一样
是我谓成看过的他
他说喜欢我blog里的那首歌
没事就会点入我的blog听那首歌
那首歌仿佛可以让人的情绪跌进了谷底
看着那样的你我更加伤心了
之后他说了3件事
1-他的朋友
那位朋友是除了我之外跟他最ngam key的人
因为怕他伤心所以离别时都不告诉他
突然这样的一句“你会不会突然就不见了”
让我jiwang了起来
很肯定的告诉他我一定不会像她那样
说过要永远都烦着他的
他告诉我“b4 this..跟我最要好,最ngam key的人叫做逊美。不过现在你完全取代了她的位置了”
不知所错的不懂要说什么才好
只能傻笑的“嗯”了一句
然后他又问了我现在最怕什么
当时我最怕的就是他伤心难过
又被你说我傻了
2-他的外婆(p&c)
3-他的公公(p&c)
他崩溃了
跟着他的情绪我也down了
傻傻的也随着他哭了
之后告诉你这些话:
我从来不会是个刻意去结交很多朋友的人..朋友惟独只有知己..只有如此的接触...交流才不会出现问题..我可以看清你..你也可以看清我...我的世界..只是因为是你..惟独是你..才会在你面前表现出如此的我..我喜欢这样我们..可以认识到自己的错误..可以在一次次的错误中..认识到朋友的界限..而成为真正的朋友...你是我最珍贵的clone...谁都代替不了你在我心中的位子...107天说短不短..说长也不长...就是想纵容你...和你相处的感觉真的很棒..我们并不用在一起就有聊不完的话题..而是在一起就算不说话也不会感到尴尬..也不知道怎么的..我就是会因为你快乐而快乐..因为你难过而难过...你就是那些我放进心里的人...相信我..我不会突然不见了...也会永远在这里当你的垃圾桶...会陪着你的...唯独因为你是我最喜欢...最疼爱的clone
就这样我又大哭了
真不知道我怎么那么傻


他最后问了我刚才是不是介意他和那个她聊天
第一次我说谎了
问他干吗问我
他在乎吗???
他就唱了“你说我总太过沉默..学着对我要毫无保留”
就这样泪水又不由自主的流出来了
终于说实话了
他早就知道我的答案了
只是想听我清口说出来
我介意又怎样???
我不介意那又怎样???
毕竟那个她对他是多么的重要的
可能是怕他再次为了那个她
不开心
难过
受伤
忽略了我吧
只想好好的保护他吧
真好笑
我干吗要这么在乎这么介意啦???
毕竟那是他们俩的事
我...都是多余的


整晚都睡不着
今天的心情特别down
down到不像平时的我
通常...我都会哭出来了
这次...我哭不出来了
心里是多么的闷...多么的不舒服
为什么眼泪这么不听话???
我需要泪水来洗去所有的down
他感觉到了我的不寻常
我也不懂我自己怎么了
找不出答案
只知道是为了昨晚
听到他唱着那首歌
不自觉的有了几滴泪水
我再也不想做那种多余的人了
俗话说别人家的家事...外人不要管
保持沉默也许是最好的选择
再多的问题
再多的话
都是多余的
因为我...是多余的



我迷路了
迷失了自己的方向
出口远离我了
就像小鸟迷失了飞回去的路
这样的我真的很惹人厌
讨厌这样的自己
这么多余的我...他因该也很讨厌
我到底该怎么做???


天空也在哭了
站在雨下哭的感觉很好
雨水湿透了全身
湿透了脸
没人会知道那是我的泪
我知道我很傻
因为你








ÁÙ²³æªº¦h - ¤p¦t

Monday, September 8, 2008

bak to uni T_____T

1week study break buh bye jor la o(T___T)o
din study din do reports din do essay din do any shyt >.<
uni's opening its warm big arm n welcoming meee >____<
but i dun wanna b welcomed T_____T
all d shyt thingys r coming up laaaa
sianz siii....i've got so many things to do >.<
stupiak lab report every single week T__T
stupiak mid sem exams tooo >__<
n fcuk tat i'm gonna hav a combo mid sem exam for straight 3days
d most cham part is semua MCQ =.o"
MCQ neva eva likes me....my ENEMY >___<
i'm surely gonna AMEN d...ARGGGHHH
i dun wanna fail anymore....failin sux to da max
muz BI GONG for 2weeks n study gao gao d
sticked d list beside d door so i can c it everyday
yayaya...so i'll freak out n STARDEE yooo XD
guyzzz wish me lotsa LUCKSSSS bah =D
o(O.o)o o(>_<)o o(u_u)o o(T_T)o

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

halooo spring ^ ^

its SPRING!!!!!!!hoooooraaay XD
*waveeeee* to spring n *shoooo* to freakin winter = )
2nd day of spring....d weather is jz nice
i dun hafta b an eskimo d luuuuu =D
i like how d sun shines n d wind breezeeeee
havin 1week break from uni
wondering y do dey call it a HOLIDAY when its freakin not a holiday to d students at all
GOSH....after d break means all d assignments n reports wud b screaming "I'M DUE...DO ME!!" n even d mid sem exams shouting at u "STARDEE ME!!!"
DIE le laeeeeeeeeee....all oso haven touch punya >.<
i've hide my books in a box so i dun c dem in d 1st few days of d break >.<
sianz la....tmr hafta korek dem out n touch dem d
no more slackin dis sem....so ganbade bah
YOSHHHHH!!!!!
hav been counting down d days....anticipated n cant wait till december arrives ^ ^
dis has owez kept me motivated so far in dis whole new sem

dis song is jz sooo nice n touching...made me a ham bao again *sob sob*


p/s : zra zra dadi....dun complain d la...blog in ang mo d...shyt la...cant express my feelings in ang mo....ishhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Saturday, August 23, 2008

i'm such a noob >________<

昨天不知为何,心血来潮的想画些什么给他
不曾使用过电脑的任何program来画画
想挑战自己
我的limit到底在那里???
photoshop对我来说是熟悉的
但,也非常的陌生
每次拍了新作品多多少少都会使用photoshop来edit些什么的
对我来说是sap sap sui的
就像我的banner...拍完了我就会留在学校edit...因为我的lappie没photoshop T___T
还以为老哥的lappie有photoshop...谁知...kip xim ar...不能用 >.<
只好用自己的lappie来download trial version >.<
idea是有了...可是不知怎么的trial version好像很多东西都没法用
非常的kip xim T____T
没放弃
失败了...再来过
他竟然还吐了一句..."不要等下明天都画不完"
哇...竟然不说些鼓励的话...真kip xim
好像真的看soi我...伤心啊
suak...过分啊
谢谢panda整晚都陪着我
想哭的时候有她的安尉
谢谢她不断的鼓励和逗我笑 =D
他回来了...可是我就是没画好
idea不停的更改...最后就随便的画
不知不觉就画出了一些些东西
终于笑了...看到了头绪
他不停的问到底在画什么
只好print screen给他看了
得到的回应让我沮丧了
哭了...觉得自己真白痴...怎么画的那么烂啊
边哭边画...就只想把我的心意画完
不在乎他喜不喜欢...我都会把它画完的
我...真的不在乎吗???
不在乎那为什么还要哭啊???
我...在乎
沉默了
他又察觉到我的不对劲了
他...问了我很多问题
我...回答着...可是不知道为什么眼泪....也跟着狂飙了
很多话想对他说...可是不知道要怎么说
只能用一句谢谢来代表所有我想对他说的
说会陪我一直到我把它完成
感动了
也知道他累了...不停的劝...但,他却迟迟不肯睡
自责了
慢慢的...他睡着了
mute了mic...不想吵到他
听到他熟睡的声音...我傻傻的笑了
整晚为了画画没吃到东西....凌晨时...开始gastric了
疼痛的感觉真的很不好受
不能半途而废...一定要画完它
5.30am....我终于完成了
松了一口气
我知道作品很糟糕...我真的是个noob
我也很抱歉
笨蛋....对不起

这是我小小的心意...给最特别的他

Monday, August 18, 2008

jiwang >.<

用ang mo写部落格总是让我词穷
很早就想用吊儿郎当的华语来稀里哈啦一下

可是华语也让我很头痛啊~~~~~~

救命啊~~~~

这个post纯粹只是cincai来的啦

paiseh lae >.<

最近也不知怎么了...几乎每天都很jiwang >.<
可能是jiwang的歌听太多了吧

前几天爹地度过了他的49岁生日
已经是第3年没能陪在他身边一起庆祝了
也慢慢的习惯了这种感觉
可是一向很emo的我...不知不觉的...让泪水不由自主的淋湿了双颊
爹地很内向...内向的他似乎不懂得如何表达他的情感
或许男生都几乎是这样吧
一句dadi i love u...没有一次是可以得到回应的...不要紧的...因为你的宝贝大小姐我感受得到你心里那个回应
从小疼爱我的心让我渐渐的习惯,也了解到这些事是不需要言语来表达的
只要用心感触一定能够感觉到那藏在心里最深处的感受
记得小时候..
.那些无聊的大人们都很喜欢问"妹妹...你爱爹地比较多还是妈咪多一些呢???"
每次都被这无聊的问题考倒了 =S
现在不需思考的...我就可以作答了
爹地妈咪两个都一样重要一样疼爱我一样纵容我...爱你们的心都是一样多的

我的生日你们还记得吗???
再过几个月我就20岁咯
18岁生日时...还好有表姐妹记得
记得表姐特地到阿姨家把礼物送给我...阿姨很冷的就说了一句"哦...你生日哦"
静悄悄我就走回房间了
那是我第一次度过好孤独的生日
还好有一群朋友们的sms祝福着
第二天,考完foundation最后一科,跑出去和表姐妹和朋友吃了一顿饭
表姐说去唱K,然后还丢下我一个人叫我去车帮他们拿东西,原来是礼物呢
走进K房时,P0P P0P P0P的喷到我全身都是...然后大家都唱了生日歌
吓呆了,感动了...不知所错了...真的很谢谢你们
19岁生日时...电话不停的响...比去年多了很多祝福
二哥记得了
考完试的他匆匆忙忙的赶到city买了蛋糕就跑去我家
莫名其妙的...我也管不了那么多...继续读我的书来应付隔天的考试
听到哥和妈通电话...说生
日没什么大不了的嘛...我心酸了
等到8点多...哥终于把早就准备好的蛋糕拿出来了...笑了
20岁的生日会是怎样的呢???
确定的是...又是考试期间.....闷啊~~~~
今年又有谁记得呢???
开心的是今年会是我第一次祝福和我同年同月同日出生的他
气的是他既然会在生日前考完试 >.<

前几天突然的非常jiwang
没有正确的理解你所说的
也没有开口问清楚
心酸了...伤心了...泪水装满了眼眶...撑不住了...稀里哗啦的泪湿了双颊和衣服
我安静了...你察觉到了我的不对劲
告诉你了...我不小心的养成了一个坏习惯...习惯了你的存在和陪伴
你解释了...可是不知道为什么我总是理解错了
你一声都没说的就走出去吹风了
不知所错的哭的更惨了
你回来时我还是一句话也不说
问我怎么了...终于还是跟你说了...这次我终于正确的了解了你所说的
原来是我理解能力差啦~~~~
我很傻吧????呵呵 =p
因为我的无知,不可理喻,蛮不讲理...向你道歉了
笨蛋...真的
对不起耶
你说你也是emo类的
我的心情是很容易可以影响到你的
所以啊...你说以后有什么事一定要跟你说...不要再把所有东西都憋在心里面
谢谢你愿意当我的垃圾桶
那天你毫无保留的跟我说了很多东西
不知不觉的就聊到早上7点多了
谢谢你肯跟我说那么多东西
我也渐渐的更了解你多一点了

信任大考验我成功了 ^ ^
最主要是谢谢你对我的信任
相信我的你...昨晚没set alarm
被你的信任感动的我不想让你失望
非常自动的7点就起床了...等着7.30的到来
初初还有点担心你不接skype call
拨第2通时想用手机打给你了...luckily你接了skype call
了解到你每天都morning call我的感觉了

currently listening to =)
Ö»ÒªÄãÔÚ - ÏôãÈÈÊ

我们家小熙熙长大咯~~~~
可爱吧???????
我也这么觉得呢 = )
羡慕的话自己去生一个咯 =D

Monday, August 11, 2008

gomenasai >___________<

heyz guyz...i'm sowie for neglecting my bloggie for such a long time
there's alot to update actually but oh well u noe me well...i'm LAZY
so i'll try my best to write as much as i can....lolx =D
so plzzzz stop nagging n ask me to update d la coz i'm doin it now altho its sooo gonna b a piece of shyt >___________________<

been reli bz for d past 6weeks o so tats y i dun hav d chance to grab a nice cup of hot choc n stick my arse to my beddie n do some blogging....i'm sowie
my days were filled up wit eat sleep chat work drama
so i guess i kinda fully used up my holidays n i'm glad tat i did =D


its been some sort of i dunno how to say it but mb i shud say it has bcum a habit for me to chat wit dese two particular great ppl....ANGE DA PANDIE GRANNIE n my CLONE
still rmb when pandie cant on9 for a certain period it made me missed her like hell lotzzz T.T
but luckily we still can get to sms but i felt sowie n guilty for causing her wasting so much money to reload her fon...sowie ANGE >.<
i lub dem to itsy bitsy bits <3


generally i had a fight wit d doorman aka d DOG on saturday which made me quit my job in d restaurant LOL
he asked d other staffs to go opposite d street n giv out d discount vouchers n for sure they all came n complain to me
so i said to d DOG tat he shud n he can do it himself n tats his job...y d hell does he nd d waitstaff to do it n hello OLD DOG...none of d restaurant in northbridge asked deir waitstaff to do d freaking useless thingy ok..... oh well...d DOG got pissed n walked into d bar n said he wud hav do it himself if he cud n shouted at me tat its fine den he'll do it alone den i got pissed as well n straight away grab d vouchers n menu n walked off d restaurant to d opposite street
when he saw me walkin out he told me he dun wan me to do it n asked me to walk bak in ignored him n continue walking my way out
den he fcuking came across n fcuking lectured me in front of so many pedestrian damn it...i'm doing wad u wanted d wad d fcuk r u still unhapi bout fcukin old dog???
its jz standing out dere in d cold for fcukin 30mins n i noe d waitstaffs can manage everything in d restaurant without me for 30mins coz it wun b bz tat time
gosh...he fcuking acted like he's d manager n he's in charge sayin dey r his staff n shud listen to him....HELLO OLD DOG....i neva rmb d boss said u're d manager o person in charge ok....ITS ME WHO'S IN CHARGE OF EVERYTHING OK DUMB ARSE
den he ordered me to go bak n fcukin scolded me childish WTF
being me...for sure i dun even giv a damn n continue standing dere n he started to threaten me he wud walk off since i dun wanna walk bak...
oh yea???fine den...u pissed me off...i had enuf of u n its time for me to quit n a gud reason for me to quit...guyz look...he fcukin pointed at ur nose n use his finger to ask u to come over like u're a dog o wad...every single time ok...d waitstaffs complained not onli once but everyday...n he fcukin sexually harassed one of d staff n caused her to quit
i straight away walked bak to d restaurant n throwed everything den took my stuffs wit me n said loudly "GO IN N TELL D BOSS I'M GONE" den walked away
every waitstaffs r stun n freaked off LOL
i called one of d chef n told him wad happened n asked him to tell d boss
den for sure d boss keep callin me n sms me ask me to go bak
BUT i'm sowie la...i cant stand it anymore... i dun wanna suffer working dere anymore...its not reli a hapi working environment...

i'm onli hapi workin on sunday lunch when its onli me running all d bar n d floor wit jack n jim n jay in d kitchen....we had so much fun =D jack...jim...jay...wendy...nicky...melissa...pat...daniel...desmond...nicole i heart u guyz n u guyz r d best =D
shyt i'm fcuking JOBLESS now...lmao


uni started...gonna b d 2nd week of uni...kinda nervous coz d units r damn hard dis sem hopefully i can do well n achieve gud grades
for pandiee n clone n ahui n d rest out dere....gambateh for a whole new sem...all d best =D
no more slacking dis sem....muz do well n fight all d way till d end...AZA AZA
thx to clone for waking me up everyday for uni =D
skype call wit him has been on d whole nitez so tat he can BOOO to wake me up in d morning its reli so saweet of him =D
da ben dan...reli thx alot =D


dramas are gud....i can fill up d pail wit my tears...
shyt la...every single drama tat i watch sure make me cry one T.T
make my eyes so swollen everyday....
dey said i'm way too emo d....cried too much...i'm a ham bao


clone was kinda not in d mood today.... i can feel d hurt he felt...it hurts alot
he trust me alot n i'm glad bout it =D
i felt so helpless....he's reli too special to me tat i felt guilty n sowie for him if i can't help him n if my advises sux
i can feel tat u're hiding sth when u on ur webby...its jz so not u...
lookin helplessly at my screen...wondering wads wrong wit u...i reli dunno y but i noe its bcoz of TAT...was hopin tat when u're tired n bored playin wit ur webby u wud tell me....tok to me finally...u let out all d hidden words in ur heart...i tried to help...hopin its d best...i cried
da ben dan....jz wanna let u noe tat plz dun keep everything deep inside ur heart...sha dan me will owez owez owez b here 4u n b ur rubbish bin......coz u r special to me...plz rmb dis


shyt....i'm tired n sleepy d...i'm off to beddie now
d latest n up-to-date sab for now

currently listening to dis song =D
Ô­À´Äã¾ÍÔÚÎÒÉí±ß - ÏôãÈÈÊ

Monday, June 30, 2008

lz to update

walao wei yaaaaaaa......
paiseh for not updating my bloggie =X
dis is gonna b d fastest post i've eva done...took me less than 10mins XD

m i reli tat bz till i've got no time to update????
i dunno d answer as well....
as usual i was being vampire....yes nonstop VAMPIRING
work n work n work everyday reli make me sianzzz...DULAN siii
so fcuking tired n stressed wit my JOBS
yalar...morning work in hotel den nite in d restaurant
it reli sux when i finish work late at nite n going bak to work damn fcukin early in d morning again
URRRRGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
sab sab mau mati dah
n yes d condition get worst now....
i'm sick...seriously sick but i still cant help stop vampiring XD
i've got dis stupid toothache....perhaps its d stupid wisdom tooth...damn it my face is so swollen bcoz of d fcukin tooth....wad????wisdom tooth come out oni got wisdom izzit?????2ndly i got sore throat *cough cough* wahaha my voice bcum so man d....3rdly i kena flu *sniff sniff* sounds lagi man wei....
sometimes i reli feel like fainting when i'm walkin bak home after work....
dis winter is reli too cold n in addition wit my stupiak shiat sickness....its reli killing meeee
d cool breeze....its soooo cold n dry till my eyes n nose damn sore la...pain si si =X

currently addicted to MEETOTO....met some cool n nice n fun ppl in dere XD

sem 1 result's out......
its totally wad i've expected to get =X
one word.......SHIAT
2nd word......FCUK
3rd word.......DAMN
4th word.......SIANZ
5th word......AMEN
a big big big big BIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIGGGGGGGGG thx to my dearest irreplacable for cheering me up =)

ok....nd to clarify tat all d pics are taken totally MANUALLY ok...dun ask me anymore

THEME:::::::::SITOBELEI:::::::::::
its all REAL sitobelei
currently listening to dis song =)
¬K®L¬î¥V - ÀF­³§D

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

lonely lonely me

everyone's flying off today T.T
sim's flight was pretty on time =)
wahahaha.....amy's n jessie's flight bak home wit tigerairways at 9.35pm got delayed till 1am
wad can i say huh?????
amy memang damn unlucky lo...
everytime her flight sure got macam macam de....EVERY SINGLE TIME
bro's flying off to hk n china for study tour at 12.15am later
i'm gonna b home alone for d whole 2weeks T.T
~~~lonely....i'm miss lonely....i'm nobody~~~~~
my place is consider near to d airport
i can hear n c planes flying pass my place everyday
tinkin.....i wanna go home
when can i finally go bak home again???
aikz.....i got a job interview for HOLIDAY INN tomolo
cham le la....i've got no confidence at all
i've got a feeling tat.....
i noe i'll screw up my interview T.T
i noe i surely cant get d job T.T


hmmm.....browse thru my stuffs today n found my photography stuffs
dis is one of d portfolio.....d theme is city of light

d 1st 4 pics were taken at KING'S PARK
imagine sab was alone dere from nite till d next morning juz to capture some nice pics for d portfolio = =
d worst thing was tat....it was spring n its still damn cold = =


d following 3pics were taken at BELL TOWER
erk.......count as pass hor?????
more to come in d next post =)
dun cincai grab my pics plz.....
plz ask for my permission 1st (i noe u guyz wun ask la)

m currently listening to dis song noh =)
«Ü¥Î¤O - ÀF­³§D

Sunday, June 15, 2008

a letter to ue

A letter to dadi and mami....



i have never expressed my feelings to you....my beloved ones
all these years i have been keeping it to myself
there's a lot of things i wanted to say....want to tell you
before i started writing this post, i already know what i wanted to say
now...when i just started to type the first alphabet, my brain went blank
totally blank....i have lost my words
its just so hard to express it in english as my english is not good
i have always know that dadi and mami love me the most since i am born
you have always longed for a daughter and that makes a clear gap on how you have cared,loved and treated me throughout these 19years and 7months
i have never complained about my appearance
but why couldn't i be like all other girls????
i want to be pretty and cute too
why must it be me???
the more i grow up the more uneasy i feel about my appearance
but nothing could change it....i can only learn how to accept it
i never blame you on this
i am glad that i am born without any disability and that's enough
i know that i have not been a good girl all these while
i have been really disobedient, naughty and naive
i have always got whatever i wanted
brothers have always complain about the unfairness
you have really spoilt me too much
i was once so naive that i nagged n bugged you everyday to send me here to further my studies
i tried anything i could do just to come here
i was really happy that i could finally achieve one of my dreams to further my studies overseas since i was a kid
i was so excited and anticipated for that day to arrive
counting down the days make me feel like i am not ready for all these...i am not willing to leave
i can always remember the day you sent me off to persuade my dream
tears dropped uncontrollably showing the unwillingness to let go
even until now....everytime you send me off tears has never bid farewell
from that very second i have to learn to grow up....be more independent
i could no longer stand behind,letting you to protect me and let you handle all the problems and obstacles
i have never know the obstacles that lies beneath every second of life because i know that no matter what you will always be right there with me
without you beside me,everything seems so hard and impossible
now that i learn that the reality of this world is cruel
survival skills and money seems to be the factors that have troubled me
i am always trying my best to do well in my studies and earn lot of money too to pay off all my expenses
its really hard...i know i am useless but i really tried my best
my studies....my result...HD and D has seem to be getting further from me
i could no longer has that achievement anymore
i have been really homesick
really just too homesick to get concentrated on my studies
you have open the cage and let go of me wishing for a better future for me
and that has always been what i wanted
but why???why have i regretted so much on choosing this path????
i should have just stay back in malaysia to continue my studies before furthering it here
friends told me that i had missed and lost the fun that i should have enjoyed
schooling back there is really more relaxed and fun
its my mistake
every kids has always wished for pursuing their studies overseas including me
when we reach this foreign land,yes i admit i am really happy that my dream has come true
its just like a bird who has just been let out of the cage,enjoying the freedom she never has before
sooner or later the birdie will start to feel tired and sad of this...she could no longer stay comfortably in her cage without the need of worrying about any single thing
people has always say that love is blind...now that i would like to say that dreams are blind
i have always been wondering too if i have chosen the right course
you said its my life and you wanted me to choose on my own
dadi has always been my idol
i admire that you worked in the hospital laboratory before and this has always make me feel so proud
and this has always been set in my mind that i wanted to be like you
thats why i have chosen this biomedical science and molecular biology
asking myself again now....is it really what i wanted to do???
i can only say no it's not
i really regretted choosing this course over engineering which is what i really wanted to do
well...perhaps there is no more turning back
so now no matter how hard it is for me....no matter how many times i failed badly and upset you....i will do all i could do to finish this course
i just want to say it in a simple way::::::::::::::::
THANKS for EVERYTHING


its father's day today
dadi its the 2nd time i am celebrating this special day without you
i am really lack of words now
i just want to wish you HAPPY FATHER'S DAY
and I LUB UE


i would like to share 3songs today....expressing my words through the songs
although the lyrics said mami....but dadi....its for you as well

this song represents the naive SAB before....
01.Mama Mama - 张韶涵

this song is what i want to tell you now....
mama i love you - zhang han yun

this song is what i want to tell you in the future....

mama - vanness wu






i miss my family so much
i have been crying every single day
its just so funny that i can be so happy laughing this second and totally turned 180 degrees being emotional letting my tears flow down
its not that i want to be like this
i just couldn't control myself
your voice...your smile...your everything just couldn't stop running through my mind

i just want to go back home
can you bring me back home????
back to where i belong

it hasn't been raining for a few days
but today it rained
the rain woke me up from my dream
i walked out to the balcony helplessly and cried
even the sky knows that i miss u



LovE,
SaB
xoxoxo

Saturday, June 14, 2008

randomly feeling bored

yesterday was black friday....friday d 13th
normally ppl wud say TGIF....if u dunno wad it means i tell u bah...TGIF means ThankGodItsFriday.....but i dun feel TGIF yesterday....bcoz its a black friday
apparently i canceled all my schedulessss except workin in d morning lo
damn it i was being so superstitious la....
coz there's a damn fcuking fat n scary black cat wondering ard my apartment
fcukin stupid cat owez scared d hell out of me at nitez....goddamnit
T.T dun wanna HAK for d whole yr wei so dun go out betta.....
yea la...being a vampire...for sure when d sun is so damn high up i wud b sleeping like a pig
slept from 12 till 7-ish....den straight away called my cousinz
OMG!!!!!!walao wei....crying????erk.......
haven hear her cry for such a damn long time d wei....dun even rmb d last time was when d
well...she had her finance wad eva stuff exam....n she said she's so gonna fail d exam
OMG.....she fail eh????she will fail oso o?????
adui....wad eva la.....try to pujuk her bak till my saliva oso dry d....
my gosh...i juz woke up n nd to tam fan ppl....my brain factory still not operating la....
GEEEEZZZ luckily she lauf bak jor =D
look ppl....if u tink u're gonna fail den fail la....wad for cry since it was a past tense d????juz move on n concentrate on d next paper.....wait until u get ur results den if reli fail tat time cry still lai de ji baaaaaaaa....save ur tears n till tat time satu kali pour out...lidat baru song maaaa....lolx

sianz.....holiday 1week oni....damn sianz sianz sianz liao.....
i'm reli a damn piggy vampire =.o
c la.....my look now...wakao wei....damn terrible laaaaaaaaaaa
my fren played wit my fon juz now n force me.....FORCE me to post this damn yong sui pic up
shit laaaaa....taken dis pic yesterday b4 startin to work.....damn fcuking yong sui










WARNING!!!!!!if u got heart attack o wad....plz b prepared....u might amen when u c d following pic....o u can now proceed to d "X" n off dis window.....up to u.....amen not my business o!!!!
wellz....last nite i had been listening to dis two songs....continuously
yeap....if u listen to d songs according to sequence....its reli damn nice lo....
lub it to itsy bitsy bits......make me cry oni T.T
some how all of my frenz asked me...how come i owez listen to such a COLD DOOR (direct translation from chinese) song but owez damn nice one...bcoz i GENG ma XD

hope u guyz like d songs too......enjoy =)

03.¤À¤â§ - ¤¸½Ãı¿ô

tuo niao -

Thursday, June 12, 2008

money minded

current mood : moody + fan arh
y y y y y y y??????????????
its all bcoz of MONEY!!!!!!!!!!
i went to atm to withdraw money to pay for my rental
lalala....was damn hapi la tat time
BUT
WTF?????!!!!!!!!!

y left so few oni????where my money hilang liao???????
i was so stunned n speechless.....i've got no idea at all where it all went
where did i spent it on????how did i spent till 1k gone in less than 2weeks???
halo!!!!!! OnE ThousanD wei T.T
come bak n check thru my on9 statement
its all de rentals n supplementary exam fees for my last sems' fault T.T
y is my rental so exp????????i reli cant afford it any longer
i'm soooo POOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOR now =(
i nd money....yes i nd money!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i've gotta start looking for a 2nd job to cover up all my expenses =(
i cudnt tell mami tat i'm omoz bankrupt coz i noe she wud surely send me money but i reli dun wan her money.....i reli wanna earn it on my own as i owez used to......to pay off all of my expenses....but d price of omoz everything has gone up....increasing dramatically till i feel i'm suffocating
my brain....my mind....is all bout money money money now......Money isnt everything........
it can buy a bed - but not sleep
it can buy a clock - but not time
it can buy a book - but not knowledge
it can buy u a position - but not respect
it can buy u medicine - but not health
it can buy u blood - but not life
so u c....money isnt everything....n it often causes pain n suffering....i tell u dis bcoz i m ur fren......n as a fren.....i wanna take away all ur pain n suffering.....


SO SEND ME ALL UR MONEY N I'LL SUFFER FOR U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

sab holiday....fren exam

(u can find dis in my human pets tale in facebook)

FOR THOSE WHO R FACING EXAMzzzzzz.......
i've got a suggestion XD

Make a copy of all lecture notes...Burn d original into ashes...Mix wit water n drink it...All will assimilate into ur blood n carry to ur brain...u will score 100 marks!!!
But dun throw d photocopy notes lar, in case brain disk crashed lo...at least still can refer lae =)
If urs is MCQ exams, n if u dunno d answer, roll d 2B pencil 3 times n average d number...Use tat number n c where it stops at d ABCDE XD
Also, when u enter d exam hall, point to 5 persons around u...repeat
"u fail u fail" n "I pass"...of coz in ur heart only larh...otherwise ppl will whack u *faints*
lolx....its superstitious but it might works XD
worth to visualise it in ur head to boost up ur confidence \(^_^)/

ALL THE BEST!!!!

GOOD LUCK!!!!!!!!+U +U +U!!!!!!!GAMBATEH!!!!!!!!!

p/s: got song for dis post geh...but my internet quota finish d....so cant upload any songs...by da way....tat song is "考试中"....a damn cute song

my niece turned 1 on sunday....haven got d pics from dem yet coz according to mami....everyone at home is sick...including my baby niece valerie T.T **hope they can get well soon**

my baby valerie....xiao xi xi =) got leng lui ma????she's juz like a photocopy series of my bro oh~~~n got look a bit like me oso oh.....teehee =)

Saturday, June 7, 2008

another homesick post

i've been very HOMESICK........
getting serious after my mum msn me on thursday
was totally moody after seeing her msg
i hate family issues
been awake d whole nite tryin to study....
nth went in my brain....nth at all
so many things running thru my mind...my brain
tears flowed out slowly.....cudnt control it
decided to sms mami early in d morning
apologizes on behalf of dadi....on d -ve side....yes he was wrong n he reli shud tink b4 he acts....but on d +ve side....it shows tat he care n love her so much....i'm reli scared....i dun wanna c anything bad happen in my family....i've seen enuf since young...been thru all d ups n downs....i'm reli tired of it....wheneva an issue arise i felt so useless....i can oni stand aside in d corner alone...crying....now tat i've grown up....i start to express my feelings....n of cos i'm not brave enuf to say it out...technologies r a great help at dis time....n i dun wan dem to c me keep crying....i hafta hide myself from dem....continue crying alone.....i lub my family so much tat i reli dun wan anything bad to happen...not a single one...i cant lose anyone of dem....my loved ones....i miss dem so much....i've been cryin every single day....cudnt control....i can b so hapi n cheerful d second b4 n totally turned 360 degrees d next second....its like all of a sudden d tears dropped without any acknowledgment....i'm shocked too...i can oni say tat 想念是会呼吸的痛....i told her i'm really homesick....i envy my frenz...i envy dem transferring bak to msia to study bcos dey r damn homesick like me....i said i wanna go bak to study....i juz wanna b somewhere near my family n home...we r kids....n yes kids r ambitious....every kids wud wan to hav d chance to further their studies overseas....including me...we wud try anything we cud do to get ourselves overseas....when we're sent here we r so hapi....finally out of d cage...flying freedomly without any tots...sooner o later we're bored of dis....we started to miss those days when we're still in d cage...d symptom of homesick started to show up....now oni we noe tat home is owes d warmest n best place eva....i juz wanna go home....juz wanna go home.....i got an instinct....i noe i wud fail badly dis time....i'm juz too homesick to get concentrated on my studies...i noe i'm a failure...i noe i've upset dem...they put so much hope in me but in return i let dem down...i dun mind starting all over again in msia....juz bring me home to d place i belong to....i'm freaking homesick....mum replied me saying dey r fine...no matter how hard it is she wans me to b brave to finish my studies for myself n not for dem....n ask me not to say i wanna go bak to study anymore....when she noes tat i'm gonna fail again...her response is different dis time...normally she wud kind of scold me but not reli scold...dis time she says its alrite...juz do betta next time...tears had neva stopped...invigilator were shocked to c me crying throughout d exam...keep askin if i'm alrite...NO I'M NOT....i betta stop talkin bout dis...tears keep dropping again *wipe my tears*


after exam i went out wit rakish,elaine n crystal to do some shopping n dinner
crystal like sth chinese....so we decided to go to Hawker for dinner =) hawker is owes soooo bz n full....we waited for more 30minutes to get a table...geeeeez
i performed a trick b4 d dinner.....i was sooo nervous but luckily it all work out rite =)

being typical msian....dis is wad we decided to order...sambal kangkung
sweet n sour pork
hainanese chicken
mapo tofu

elaine d JB gal enjoying her dinner =)rakish originally a Miri boy den moved to Selangor =)crystal d french gal.....she is juz sooooooo pretty

HAPPY HOLIDAY n enjoy ur trips......i'll c u guys in sem 2 in 8weeks time =)

i'm sowie i freaked u guys out dese few days cos i'm reli emo....sowie
sowie to jazzie as well cos i FFFK(fcukin fong fei kei) on u yesterday =(

i'm currently listening to dis song =)
天空tian kong - ¬P¥ú¤G¯Z